Group pic before heading to dinner.
We had so much fun! I have the best in-laws, ever!
Monday, January 16, 2012
The Little Mermaid at Tuachan
Kassi and I were so lucky to see the Little Mermaid at Tuachan in October with my mom-in-law and sister-in-laws. We had such a blast going down to St George. The production was amazing! I'd never been to Tuachan before, and it is beautiful there! Can't wait to go again!
Group pic before heading to dinner.
Another group pic before heading into the show.
Kassi and me waiting for the show to start.
Kassi, Cambree, and Hailey.
After the show, Wendy, Hailey, and Cambree.
Deanne, Kassi, Hailey, Cambree, and Kristen.
Me and Kassi.
We had so much fun! I have the best in-laws, ever!
Group pic before heading to dinner.
We had so much fun! I have the best in-laws, ever!
Friday, January 13, 2012
30th Birthday Surprise!
I can't believe I turned 30 back in October! I seriously still feel 23. I actually was really struggling with turning 30. I know. I know. 30 is still young. I heard that every time I told someone I was having a hard time with this birthday.
But I wasn't struggling because I was 30. I was struggling with where I was at in my life at 30. When I got married at 21, I naively had planned how it was all going to work out. I got married young, so we would wait a year, and then I'd get pregnant. I'd have the first two kids a couple years apart, then I'd wait three years, and have my last two. I would be done having kids by the time I was 30. Brad and I would be young parents, and have the kids out of the house by our 50's. Then we could travel and enjoy our grandkids while we were still young.
It's so dumb when I think about it now. But my mom was fertile myrtle. She got pregnant when she was thinking about it. I thought I would be the same way.
So as I approached 30, with no end in sight, when it came to the kids situation, I just felt so empty. So incomplete. So stuck.
And once you hit the magical number of 30, your chances of getting pregnant go down even lower. So, now do you see why I was dreading this birthday a little bit?
About a month before my birthday, Brad called me from work and told me that a vendor had invited all their clients to a dinner at Ruth's Chris, (a very delicious and very expensive restaurant.) Something I was very excited about because this had happened before, but only Brad was able to go. He said he didn't know the date yet, but would find out in a couple weeks.
Brad called me from work a couple weeks later, and told me it was going to be on October 3rd, (my birthday,) and if I would be okay going there that night. Are you kidding me? I was thrilled! A nice expensive dinner, for FREE! How great is that! I called my mom to see if she could watch Kassi, and of course she could! It was all working out.
The night of my birthday, we headed over to my parent's, dropped off Kassi, and as I was walking outside, SURPRISE! There was my family, Brad's family, and my closet friends from high school. Our families are so big with spouses and kids, and since it was at my parent's house, he wanted to keep it as small as possible, so don't be offended if you weren't invited. :)
Anyway, I was BLOWN away! I was speechless, and if you know me that doesn't happen very often. My cute hubby had been planning this for 6 weeks! Emailing all my friends, and family. I just never thought Brad would do this. He's the best husband, ever, but he doesn't like parties very much. So I never thought he would plan one himself!
It was the best party! I had such a great time, (even though I didn't get to go to Ruth's Chris.) Lol! And I realized that yes, my life isn't where I thought it would be at this time, but I am so truly blessed, and so happy. I love my life. And I'm grateful that 30 ended up being the best birthday, ever!
I didn't get pics of everyone, unfortunately, but here are most of the party people.
Me with one of my best friends, Linsey, her husband, Eric, and their daughter, London.
My cousin, Brian, his wife Alicia, and their baby, Brody.
My Uncle Steve, Aunt Liz, and cousin, Robbie.
My other 2 besties, Carly and Lisa. Sorry that you are missing Melissa!
Brad and me
My Father-in-law and my sister-in-law, Wendy.
My mom-in-law, and sis-in-law, Kristen.
Me and my sister, Laura.
My sis-in-law, Heather, and her kids, Zach, Danny, and Max. My bro Jarom is missing from this pic. I love the boy's faces in this pic. Priceless! Lol!
My brother, Justin, and his wife Jennica.
Me with my mom, dad, and Kassi, (who is in her jammies and very tired at the end of the party.)
Here are pics from earlier in the day when I was opening my gifts from Brad.
But I wasn't struggling because I was 30. I was struggling with where I was at in my life at 30. When I got married at 21, I naively had planned how it was all going to work out. I got married young, so we would wait a year, and then I'd get pregnant. I'd have the first two kids a couple years apart, then I'd wait three years, and have my last two. I would be done having kids by the time I was 30. Brad and I would be young parents, and have the kids out of the house by our 50's. Then we could travel and enjoy our grandkids while we were still young.
It's so dumb when I think about it now. But my mom was fertile myrtle. She got pregnant when she was thinking about it. I thought I would be the same way.
So as I approached 30, with no end in sight, when it came to the kids situation, I just felt so empty. So incomplete. So stuck.
And once you hit the magical number of 30, your chances of getting pregnant go down even lower. So, now do you see why I was dreading this birthday a little bit?
About a month before my birthday, Brad called me from work and told me that a vendor had invited all their clients to a dinner at Ruth's Chris, (a very delicious and very expensive restaurant.) Something I was very excited about because this had happened before, but only Brad was able to go. He said he didn't know the date yet, but would find out in a couple weeks.
Brad called me from work a couple weeks later, and told me it was going to be on October 3rd, (my birthday,) and if I would be okay going there that night. Are you kidding me? I was thrilled! A nice expensive dinner, for FREE! How great is that! I called my mom to see if she could watch Kassi, and of course she could! It was all working out.
The night of my birthday, we headed over to my parent's, dropped off Kassi, and as I was walking outside, SURPRISE! There was my family, Brad's family, and my closet friends from high school. Our families are so big with spouses and kids, and since it was at my parent's house, he wanted to keep it as small as possible, so don't be offended if you weren't invited. :)
Anyway, I was BLOWN away! I was speechless, and if you know me that doesn't happen very often. My cute hubby had been planning this for 6 weeks! Emailing all my friends, and family. I just never thought Brad would do this. He's the best husband, ever, but he doesn't like parties very much. So I never thought he would plan one himself!
It was the best party! I had such a great time, (even though I didn't get to go to Ruth's Chris.) Lol! And I realized that yes, my life isn't where I thought it would be at this time, but I am so truly blessed, and so happy. I love my life. And I'm grateful that 30 ended up being the best birthday, ever!
I didn't get pics of everyone, unfortunately, but here are most of the party people.
Me with one of my best friends, Linsey, her husband, Eric, and their daughter, London.
Here are pics from earlier in the day when I was opening my gifts from Brad.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
"I have some bad news........."
I have not blogged much about our second attempt at invitro. To be honest, I was trying to pretend it wasn't happening. But both Brad and I were feeling really good about it. They implanted 2 more eggs on December 5th. I was so good this time. Stayed down for two days, and then took it really easy. (If you come over, don't judge me. My house is a disaster.) With it being December, I have been so busy, and have been trying not to stress about it. This week my baby brother got married, and a couple nights ago was the wedding dinner. I started feeling crampy. Then I became a wreck. Luckily, we were busy with wedding stuff, so I couldn't just sit and cry, but I couldn't shake this bad feeling I was having.
We got through the wedding yesterday, which was an amazing day, and this morning went in for blood work. I was trying to stay positive, but at the same time preparing for the worst. We got home, and just kept busy doing stuff around the house and getting Kassi ready for school.
After we had been home about an hour and a half, my phone rings. It's my Dr's office. I thought, wow, that was fast. It must be good news. I pick up, and the nurse sounds happy to talk to me. I got even more excited. Then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, her tone changes. "Well, I'm sorry to say, but I have some bad news. You're not pregnant." Brad and I look at each other, and I think we mirrored the same face. Pure sadness. I started to cry, but was doing my best to hold it in until our conversation ended.
After we hung up, Brad and I just sat there, held each other, and sobbed. As much as I was trying to prepare myself for the worst, you just can't. I think about those two little blastocysts that are alive and growing when they go in me, and for some reason, they won't stick. There's no explanation. Everything, once again, looked great.
I wish I could say that I was fine. That it not working the second time is easier, but it's not. It's devastating. I don't understand. I don't know if I ever will. But I do know that the Lord loves us, and he is aware of us. We'll get through this, and move on to the next step. What that is, I don't know. But eventually we will have more kids. It may be through me. It may be through someone else. Who knows, but we will get them here. I just have to continue to be patient.
We got through the wedding yesterday, which was an amazing day, and this morning went in for blood work. I was trying to stay positive, but at the same time preparing for the worst. We got home, and just kept busy doing stuff around the house and getting Kassi ready for school.
After we had been home about an hour and a half, my phone rings. It's my Dr's office. I thought, wow, that was fast. It must be good news. I pick up, and the nurse sounds happy to talk to me. I got even more excited. Then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, her tone changes. "Well, I'm sorry to say, but I have some bad news. You're not pregnant." Brad and I look at each other, and I think we mirrored the same face. Pure sadness. I started to cry, but was doing my best to hold it in until our conversation ended.
After we hung up, Brad and I just sat there, held each other, and sobbed. As much as I was trying to prepare myself for the worst, you just can't. I think about those two little blastocysts that are alive and growing when they go in me, and for some reason, they won't stick. There's no explanation. Everything, once again, looked great.
I wish I could say that I was fine. That it not working the second time is easier, but it's not. It's devastating. I don't understand. I don't know if I ever will. But I do know that the Lord loves us, and he is aware of us. We'll get through this, and move on to the next step. What that is, I don't know. But eventually we will have more kids. It may be through me. It may be through someone else. Who knows, but we will get them here. I just have to continue to be patient.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Family Pics August 2011
We got more pics taken in August this year. For several reasons. First, I wanted 6 year old pics of Kassi. Second, I was thinking I would be pregnant the next month, so I wanted one more family pic of just the three of us. Ya. So obviously that didn't happen, but that's ok. I really liked how they turned out of Kassi. We went to Fotogenix. They did a good job. So here are the ones we purchased.
And my fav. She looks like a little angel.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Kassi's first day of KINDERGARTEN!
So now that the year is just about half way over, I am finally posting Kassi's pics of the first day of school. She is LOVING kindergarten, and her teacher, Mrs. Crockett.
Here is Kassi and my nephew, Zach.
Kassi about to get on the bus.
Waiting in line to go in to class. Can you tell they are excited?
With Mrs Crockett.
Here is Kassi and my nephew, Zach.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
The Final Party!
Kassi's final party was with my family. She had so much fun her birthday week, and was sad when it was all over.
Kassi opening her gifts while sitting with my Dad.
My baby brother, Justin, his fiance, Jennica, and my nephew, Max.
Our lil' fam.
Singing Happy Birthday.
Kass with Grandma.
Kass with Aunt Laura.
Heather and Max.
How gorgeous is my fam? :) So, I haven't talked a whole lot about Kassi on here. Since I decided not to go private, Brad wants me to be very careful about what I say when it comes to our family. But I just have to talk about my lil 6 year old for a minute. Kassi is the life of the party. She loves to smile and laugh. She is, I think, pretty much the happiest little girl I know. Everywhere she goes she talks to people. (I've had to teach her to be a little more careful about that.) She genuinely cares about everyone. Anytime anyone is sad or hurt, she wants to help. I tell Brad, I think she got the best of both of us. She is fun and outgoing like her mom, (She also got my temper. Lol!) but also easygoing and a tease like her dad. She loves to stay busy, but is okay cuddling up on the couch with some popcorn and watching a movie. She does know how to throw a good tantrum, but once it is over, she wraps her arms around you and tells you she's sorry. She LOVES to sing and dance. A total performer. She also loves school and being with her friends. I was always nervous with her being an only child that she would have social problems. Boy, was I ever wrong. That child is friends with everyone. She loves to draw pictures for anyone and everyone. Anytime I am gone, she'll dictate a note to Brad about how much she misses me, and how much she loves me. She looks just like her dad, but has my build to a T. She is my best lil buddy, and as much as I want time to slow down, I love that she is growing up. She's not my baby, even though I always call her that. She is my kid. Everyone who gets to know her gets wrapped around her little finger. She is one special little girl. Ok. I think I am done, but I just have to say again how grateful I am for this little girl. The Lord knew what he was doing when he sent her to us. She is my everything. The reason I get up every morning, and I am so blessed to have her in my life. As hard as it is to be a mom sometimes, there is not one second, that I would wish it away.
Thanks for listening to my rambling. I think that is why I don't talk about her more often. If you get me going, I won't stop. :) Happy Birthday Kass! I love you more than life.
Kassi opening her gifts while sitting with my Dad.
How gorgeous is my fam? :) So, I haven't talked a whole lot about Kassi on here. Since I decided not to go private, Brad wants me to be very careful about what I say when it comes to our family. But I just have to talk about my lil 6 year old for a minute. Kassi is the life of the party. She loves to smile and laugh. She is, I think, pretty much the happiest little girl I know. Everywhere she goes she talks to people. (I've had to teach her to be a little more careful about that.) She genuinely cares about everyone. Anytime anyone is sad or hurt, she wants to help. I tell Brad, I think she got the best of both of us. She is fun and outgoing like her mom, (She also got my temper. Lol!) but also easygoing and a tease like her dad. She loves to stay busy, but is okay cuddling up on the couch with some popcorn and watching a movie. She does know how to throw a good tantrum, but once it is over, she wraps her arms around you and tells you she's sorry. She LOVES to sing and dance. A total performer. She also loves school and being with her friends. I was always nervous with her being an only child that she would have social problems. Boy, was I ever wrong. That child is friends with everyone. She loves to draw pictures for anyone and everyone. Anytime I am gone, she'll dictate a note to Brad about how much she misses me, and how much she loves me. She looks just like her dad, but has my build to a T. She is my best lil buddy, and as much as I want time to slow down, I love that she is growing up. She's not my baby, even though I always call her that. She is my kid. Everyone who gets to know her gets wrapped around her little finger. She is one special little girl. Ok. I think I am done, but I just have to say again how grateful I am for this little girl. The Lord knew what he was doing when he sent her to us. She is my everything. The reason I get up every morning, and I am so blessed to have her in my life. As hard as it is to be a mom sometimes, there is not one second, that I would wish it away.
Thanks for listening to my rambling. I think that is why I don't talk about her more often. If you get me going, I won't stop. :) Happy Birthday Kass! I love you more than life.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
More Kassi Bday Parties
We did alot for Kassi's birthday this year, so I am kinda dividing it up. She woke up in the morning and Brad and I had done some decorating to surprise her.
I think she was excited.
These are the presents she got from Brad and me. She's holding up her fav toy. Barbie Fashion Fairytale.
Brad's side of the family had their party for her, my bro-in-law Jesse, and nephew Trey first.
Opening her gifts from everyone.
Singing Happy Birthday to Kassi, Jesse, and Trey. (My niece, Grace, wanted to be in the pic, too.)
I feel so rushed posting this, but the truth is, I kinda am. Lol! I have a million things to do today, and I shouldn't be on the computer. But I'm so behind I wanted to do one quick post. The next post should be her last bday party.
Opening her gifts from everyone.
I feel so rushed posting this, but the truth is, I kinda am. Lol! I have a million things to do today, and I shouldn't be on the computer. But I'm so behind I wanted to do one quick post. The next post should be her last bday party.
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