Brad's Blog

This is totally random, but Brad decided to create a "mock" blog. Most of what he says makes no sense, but it'll make you laugh. It's www.livinlies.blogspot.com

Hopes it makes your day as much as I know that it will make mine!

Sassy Kassi

This is a conversation I just had with Kaasi.

Me: Kassi, are you done going potty?
Kassi: No answer
Me: Kassi? Are you done? Wipe your bum and wash your hands.
Kassi: No answer
Me: KASSI! Why aren't you answering me? You need to listen.
Kassi: No mom. You aren't listening to ME! That's what the problem is! YOU NEED TO LISTEN TO ME MOM! Mom?
Me: No answer
Kassi: Moooo-oom.
Me: No answer
Kassi: MOOOOOMMMMMM!
Me: Kassi, you do not talk to me that way.
Kassi: HUMPH! Fine. I just wish you would listen to me.
Me: Well you need to listen to me. I am the mom.
Kassi: Are you mad?
Me: No. I just get frustrated when you don't listen.
Kassi: Ok. I will sing you a song and it will make you happy.

Kassi then proceeds to sing and dance La Cucaraucha.
Those are the mood swings I deal with every day. The joys of having a girl.

I'm Thankful For........

Ok. So it's almost 1 in the morning and I am still up. Just thinking, but this time it is about the things I have been blessed with. I am reading a book right now called, "Kissed By An Angel." Really sweet book. (Thanks Karey!) It talks about death and angels, and has got me thinking. Thinking about how blessed I am.

Yes, we all go through hard things in our lives. Some much harder than others. Going on 3 years of being infertile sucks, bad, but nothing compared to things some of you have gone through.

I have really been trying to focus on the positive things in my life, from the very beginning since I miscarried 3 years ago. Every time I would start to get down, I would think to myself how good I have it. It has only been recently that things have gotten a bit harder for me. I'm really trying hard to stay positive, and to "relax" like every freaking person in the world has told me to do. (Sorry, it gets kinda annoying.) I had a talk with someone recently who pretty much told me that yes, what I am going through is hard, but I should be thankful for what I have. That really shocked me. Am I portraying to people that I am not thankful? Because I am. If I was only ever to have one child, I would still be thankful for my life. Many women can't have ANY! I have an amazing husband who I love more than life, a beautiful, healthy little girl who is my life, a job where I can work from home, my husband's job, a home to live in, amazing parents, siblings, and in-laws, friends that would do pretty much anything for me, and most importantly, the gospel, and my Savior. (I could go on, but this post is already getting a little too long.)

I love my life and apologize to any whose feelings I may have hurt. Please know if you ever hear me talking about my problems of infertility, that I always have the big picture in the back of my mind. Compared to many in this world, my life would be considered perfect, and in many ways it is. But I am certainly not. Very far from it. So there are times I have my own little pity parties. Times where I am so sick of praying for the same things over and over again, and feeling those prayers aren't getting answered. Wanting the same thing year after year tends to always be in the back of your mind. Here I go again. Sorry. See? It just starts coming out if I'm not careful.

Anyway after reading this book, it just reminded me of how quickly life can slip away. I never want those around me to question my love and gratitude for them. Every single person who is reading this, I know I would be able to thank you for some way you have affected my life.

I am a better person for knowing all of you! Thank you all for your friendship, support, and most of all, love.

Now before this gets any cheesier, I better get to sleep!